Thursday, January 22, 2015

Pregnancy: I didn't like it.

Family PhotoAt the risk of being stoned to death for my opinion, I'm just going to say it:  I didn't enjoy pregnancy.

I was not a, "Ohhh, I love feeling the miracle growing inside of me!" kinda girl.  I was a, "There's an alien trying to claw itself out of me," kinda girl.  Don't get me wrong.  I did feel happy I was pregnant.  It took 6 pregnancy tests and countless tears to get a little life growing in my belly.  And, I did feel giddy when I'd feel him moving around (when it was new).

The thing was....

I am a control freak!  I didn't like that I had no control over my body.  My body would do things that I didn't even know it was

[caption id="attachment_176" align="alignright" width="225"]20 weeks pregnant! 20 weeks pregnant with Jax[/caption]

going to do.  Jax had taken the reigns on it.  My body kept growing and I had no control over that, as much as I exercised and watched my diet, he was swimming in a lot of water.  I didn't like that he'd kick me when I was just about to fall asleep, which was a feat in itself with pregnancy induced insomnia, and I'd wake back up.  And, you might be thinking, I just had a hard time wrapping my mind around my changing body, but that wasn't it.  I actually thought I was a damn sexy pregnant woman.  I have never had an issue with body confidence.  I would rock that belly like I was rocking an awesome accessory.  I just didn't enjoy sharing my body with someone else.

So, I'm selfish?

No, I didn't enjoy sharing my body with someone else.  But, does that make me a bad mom?  No.  I love Jax all the way around the world and back again.  I'd give him anything.  And, I would share my body again to love someone else all the way around the world and back.

So, despite my love for independence (body and all), I will share my body again.  I will have another little alien sprout inside me.

I think it's a taboo topic to admit that you didn't enjoy being pregnant, but I don't need to love being pregnant.  I just need to love my little person.  And that is how I feel, guilt free.  I is who I is.

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Monday, January 12, 2015

10 Things That Make me Irrationally Happy

happyOn this Monday morning, we all need a reminder of things that make us happy.  After a weekend of doing whatever I want (which this weekend, was mostly hibernating), I made myself a cup of tea on this fine morning and it reminded me of all the other things that make me stupidly happy for no reason.  I'm sharing my list to help jog your memory of what makes you happy this Monday.

In no particular order:

1.  Baby J squishing his nose like a bunny.  I laugh hysterically even though he only does it when he is annoyed.

2.  Tea!  I feel like I have jumped into a pool of heaven when I'm drinking tea.

3.  Planning a vacation.  I love the art of planning a get away.  Sadly, I also really enjoy the budgeting and creating an itinerary.

4.  J's laugh.  Is there anything better than a child's innocent/sometimes evil laughter?

5.  When J is healthy for more than a week at a time.  Am I right fellow daycare parents?

6.  Researching essential oils.  I find it ridiculously interesting to find natural remedies to my family's ailments.  I recently began making my own skincare products which kick store-bought products asses.  I'll post my recipes later.

7.  Gym!  I love going to the gym.  Not only do I enjoy the workout, but I enjoy the very few moments of alone time I get while I'm there.

8.  Lounging with my H.  He is my partner in life and I have far too much fun doing nothing at all with him.

9.  Seeing my friends.  It's a rarity these days to see my friends, so when I finally get the chance to break out of the house and meet up with them, it is soo needed.

10.  Hanging out with my family.  I have so much fun hanging out with my family.  They are my very best friends in the world and I love them to pieces.

What makes you happy on this Monday?

What I listened to while writing:

Jimi Thing Live Europe 2009 by Dave Matthews Band (any DMB fan knows a live version can last 10 minutes)

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Wednesday, January 7, 2015

Cauliflower Pizza with a Healthy Tweak!

[caption id="" align="alignleft" width="357"] cauliflower pizza[/caption]

I don't know about you, but I have tried about a thousand and fifteen cauliflower pizza recipes.  I love pizza.  Like, one of those epic love affairs you read about and you're all, "...I wish someone loved me that much!  That kind of love only exists in books.."  Well, be jealous, that's the kind of love I have for pizza.  However, I do not love when my jeans don't fit, so, I try and find alternatives.

The bitch of cauliflower pizza crust:

1.  Sticky - half the pizza stays on the pan.

2.  Fall apart

3.  Soggy

This is how I solved the cauliflower pizza crust problems:


1.  2 cups cauliflower ground with a food processor.

2.  2 eggs

3.  2 cups of mozzarella cheese

4.  1 cup of flaxseed flour

  • First heat the cauliflower in the microwave for 8 minutes.

  • Then add the eggs, cheese, and flaxseed.

  • Add any spices you like:  oregano, basil, garlic, minced onions, etc.

  • Mix well.

  • Flatten into a pizza shape and bake ON PARCHMENT PAPER for fifteen minutes at 450.

  • Take out the crust and let it rest for fifteen minutes.  This allows time to harden the crust.

  • Add toppings.

  • Put back in the oven for 7 minutes.

  • Take the pizza out and let it set for a few minutes before cutting.

Enjoy!  I made up this recipe this weekend.  I didn't think about taking pictures for the blog until it was too late.  Sorry :(.  But, enjoy this generic picture of a cauliflower pizza.  FYI - yours will be darker because of the flaxseed.

What I listened to while writing:

I see Fire by Ed Sheeran

Billie Jean by the Civil Wars

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Tuesday, January 6, 2015

Detox Bath - hello lover!

Relaxing BathLately, I have been obsessed with essential oils.  Soon, you will get a post about this new obsession, but for now, I'm going to focus on one aspect:  the detox bath.  With new year resolutions in the air, everyone is trying to get healthier, me included.  I'm planning on getting back on the pregnancy wagon (if all goes well) in the - relatively -  near future.  So, just like last time, I'm working on my body prep.  Pregnancy is like training for a marathon, after all (see that post here)!

In my quest for health, I have started taking detox baths to get toxins out of my skin and pH balance my body.  I also give my baby detox baths.

A few elements of a detox bath:

Essential Oils

The essential oils I use for detox baths are

Lavender:  Helps relieve anxiety, anti-bacterial, soothes sore muscles and many more benefits.

Lemon:  Detoxifies the body, natural immune booster, and clears bacteria.

Peppermint:  Helps with skin ailments

Epsom Salts

Epsom salts flush toxins from the body, regulates muscle functions, relieves stress, and relieves inflammation.

Baking Soda

Neutralizes chemicals in tap water and helps your body absorb minerals better.

Bentonite Clay

Bentonite clay is made from volcanic ash with a negative molecule charge.  Most toxins have a positive molecule charge, so the clay actually pulls the toxins from your body.

Baby J and I take detox baths a few times a week and I have to say, we have been sick less, sleep better, and are better energized during the day.

What I listened to while writing:

Rude (acoustic) by Magic!

Tiger Striped Sky by Roo Panes

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Sunday, January 4, 2015

Work Week Inspiration Board: Week 2, January

Brrr - it's freezing outside in Chicago.  This week's inspiration board is all about layers and keeping warm, while looking cute.  Enjoy!

Week 2, January

1.  Sequin Front Crew Neck Sweater, Express. | 2.  Gingham Portofino, Express | 3.  Studio Stretch Columnist Pant, Express | 4.  Target Fleece-lined leggings for under those pants - keepin' it warm |  5.  LL Bean Camp Socks, wicks away moisture and quick-drying.  Perfect for when the snow seeps into your shoes/boots.

Picture the sweater layered over the gingham button down - yes, please!  The fleece leggings and camp socks are warm, but out of sight.  Perfect Chiberia outfit.

What I listened to while writing:

Pumpkin Blood by NONONO

Chandelier by Kina Grannis

Wild Ones by Bahari

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